One of the most exciting times in our long life together was when our granddaughter was born 4 years ago. I dont think I had seen such excitement in his eyes since our own children were born. He was born to be a Dad and he was a great Dad, no doubt about it. If I held interviews to pick a Dad for my children, he would have won. As one of my sons said at the funeral “Anyone can be a Father, but not everyone can be a Dad” That is so true, and we saw it first hand.
Now a couple of days ago, our second grandchild was born. Another little precious girl. I looked forward to this on 2 levels. On level was with anticipation and excitement, the other level was dread because I knew it was going to be sad, I knew it was going to be difficult and above all I know it was going to be lonely. I tried my best to keep up a good front but underneath I was heartbroken. He would have loved this, all the holding and feeding and walks, he would have skipped off one place and ended up visiting on his way home to have a little cuddle. He was born to be a Granddad too.
I can only imagine all this now, I am doing that and somehow its giving me a little comfort. I can almost feel his presence since then. While I dont have many beliefs, I do believe that a spirit can visit and maybe its wishful thinking but so what, thats the way I feel so thats the way it is. Looking at our little granddaughter is showing me that life is going on and I owe it to everyone to be part of it, and I will, it might take a little time yet but I will get there.
We made some lovely people, a little bit of you, a little bit of me and a whole lot of us –
Happy Birthday xx from me to you,