Again its here, Christmas is looming and for some reason this year its horrendous. On 28th Nov I put the tree up, willing myself and hoping I would start to feel the spirit. and what happens – nothing. A big fat nothing. I cannot feel anything. I hoped I would, I wished I would but …
I have mentioned to a few that I have not had a dream about us together. Well, thats not quite true, I had 2 but while a body was there, there was never a face or a look. The other night I had the most amazing dream, we were together just like always and carrying …
Over the last few weeks I seemed to have been shot back in time. I am unable to perform the simplest of tasks. I am all over the place. I feel that everything is against me. While there is still a lot of things to be sorted, it seems that the last 2 years have …
Days like this are the pits. Today exactly 2 years ago was the day that changed my life forever. A pain, concern, trip to hospital, overnight stay, gallstones prediction, tests, a day later – all changed – problems arose and then the news. I still cant quite believe it. How did this happen. this is …
When I say that memory place, I mean exactly that. Its a place that has no directions to, no conscious abode and it has no road in or road out, in fact I have no idea where it is at all. It is a place that only exists in my world and when I leave …
6 months on, and it was necessary to call a taxi home on my own. I cant tell you how vunerable I feel in situations like this at the moment. Even situations I would have been in on my own before somehow are different now. Maybe this will change but I think it will be …